Being Ugly Is The Source Of All My Problems

Being Ugly Is The Source Of All My Problems

Being / feeling ugly seems to be the source of all my problems

It’s easier said than done to say “just don’t let it bother you”. That seems to be the top piece of advice on the “I’m ugly” topic, and it’s demeaning and hardly motivational. Because it does bother me, all the time. And I can’t just switch that off.

I’m losing confidence, because I think I’m ugly, I don’t know why my husband is with me, he deserves someone better someone beautiful. And the thing is, it doesn’t matter what the ‘truth’ is. Because I know what my truth is and it’s my truth that’s holding me back. I think I’m ugly and you can tell me I’m beautiful but I won’t believe it.

This is how I truly felt 8 years ago I had no confidence in myself, I did not see my self as others saw me, but when my daughter was 9 she began to tell me how ugly and fat she felt, I could see myself so much in her, my constant putting myself down was rubbing off on her, she would look at her self in the mirror and say how fat she was. What on earth was she saying she is absolutely beautiful inside and out.

When I stood back and saw how I was affecting her I looked at myself and saw me for the first time, yes i had stretch marks these were a gift from my daughter, yes I have bags under my eyes these are from sleepless nights from either my little boy waking in the night, or from the man I love snoring next to me.

I saw the likes on my pictures on Facebook. I saw the love that I had around me a realised I am not ugly, I am not fat, I am me, I am unique, I am my own worst enemy.

If you feel you are ugly, fat, unattractive, stop!!! You are perfect, you are loved, there is no one else like you and you don’t know who may be watching you and think that it is normal or acceptable to hate yourself

 

Author: XGemx

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