Hey there was wondering if I could have a private post please. It’s a sensitive subject. Please bare with me.
I don’t want to be posting this as I feel horrible as it is, but has anyone suffered from gender disappointment? My mental health worker said she is watching me and said that it will pass. But I wasn’t expecting it when I found out I was having a little boy in the scan room I was ecstatic! So happy the relief I felt when I heard the heartbeat and was told everything seems to be growing perfectly! And that we were going to be having a little boy! Who made it very clear wangling his little bits around!
Since finding out I told my family. Who all reacted really badly as they all wanted a girl as I’m the only one out of all of the kids!
We then went baby shopping and they were all still picking up girls clothes. Still saying the name I would have picked for a girl ignoring the fact that I’m now having a little boy and not being able to accept it.
Since then my partner has said I’ve seemed distant from the baby and distant in myself and he is really worried and I wasn’t even aware until both him and my worker pointed it out. What can I do to stop it. I was so happy and now I just feel numb to everything. And I know I’m horrible for feeling this way. But I don’t know what I’m feeling. Im so confused. Sorry for the rant.