I do not need a day on a calendar to tell me when to miss you because I miss you every day, birthdays, Christmas and the day you grew your wings are hard but so is sitting here right now wishing you were by my side..
Every now and again the thought will just creep up out of nowhere and hit me and I’m reminded of all the things we have missed.
All the things we do on a daily basis that we don’t really give much thought about, milestones in your life that you never got to reach.
Seeing children playing that are similar to the age you should be, wondering what would have been your favourite game, would you have been popular, funny or kind.
Everyday is hard but some are harder than others like today really hit me, there is no escaping it, with every firework lighting up the sky, every bang, every crackle just hits me, you should be sat on my shoulders watching it with your family but you aren’t here with me. That was the last time we were a full family.
I know people say time heals but that’s a lie it doesn’t, time just teaches us to “deal with it” some days I’m better at it than others and some days I’m a complete mess. I will never get over losing you, I will just learn to live with it. I can’t change it, but if I could I would give anything just to have you home with us where you belong.
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