I have been with my partner nearly 3 years he’s always been controlling in certain ways.
Last month he woke me up at 4am and started touching me, me and him very rarely have sex because every time I come onto him he never wants it and when we do its on his terms, his way or the high way.
But he carried on touching me. I laid there pretending to be a sleep for a while longer.
Then he pulled my pants down. At this point I knew i couldn’t fake sleep anymore. Soon as I opened my eyes he said let me put it in your arse.
I said no. He carried on. I said no. He continued to try I said no I don’t want to, I shouted STOP
I then tried to roll over… he held my arms …
And then continued.
It really upset me.
I felt broken
I felt like I had been violated.
But it can’t be rape we are in a relationship
The next day I couldn’t get the incident out of my mind, I felt dirty and must have had at least 6 showers that day, I was fearful and sad, and this increased when I heard his car pull into the drive, I couldn’t look at him.
I decided two days after the attack that it was 100% not my fault and just because I was in a relationship with him does not give him the right to my body, I was raped!!!
Yes I reported, No he wasn’t convicted but I was free, I was safe and he knew he had done wrong.
I just want other woman to know that if you are in a relationship that does not give your partner the right to touch you or sleep with you without your consent, NO means NO!