please post anonymously. I am 19 years old I am a new time mum with my partner …
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I am 19 years old I am a new time mum with my partner that I have been with for coming up 6 years. we live in our own private rented property with our little girl of 4 months and our dog. the first couple of months I struggled (antenatal depression i was told) but I was to scared of doing anything. I had so many check ups from the health visitor I only felt they were waiting for me to slip up and have an excuse to take my daughter away. I guess I got very paranoid. the only way I could make myself feel better was to clean to the point it would upset me if things weren’t right. I tried to deal with it myself and overcome what I was feeling silently but being so close to my mum it soon got out. I started to feel unsecure and worrying about things before it had happened. (rent/bills/money/so on)
I have always had brilliant family surport so I never needed to worry. I guess I just wanted to show everyone I could cope. I showed a image at work that I was this lucky girl with a beautiful baby. I always told myself how lucky I was to be able to bring such a beautiful healthy baby into this world and their are people that can’t (I had a few negative comments while I was pregnant)
I had a few episodes realising I could no longer carry on like this.
I have rang the doctors and I have now been proscribed anti depressants just to help me feel myself again.
why should we be ashamed why should we hide
why do we always talk about the good bits and try and compare are children.
my daughter is my daughter no matter what she does or how she does it or if she can do something others cant or maybe if she can’t do something it is my job to show her. I will do my best to be the best mother I can to her and if I have to take a small little tablet to help me get through the day I will
I wasn’t sure if other mum’s felt like this and I can say noone has ever admitted they have struggled to myself so if I can help someone by just letting them know they aren’t the only one then so be.
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