Ppp I posted last Sunday about my oh kicking off with me and going out when I ha…

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Ppp I posted last Sunday about my oh kicking off with me and going out when I have repeatedly asked him not to go out on a Sunday as he left the door open a few months ago when he was drunk and passed out on the couch and anyone could have walked in luckily I couldn’t sleep and had went downstairs and seen it was open and locked it. Anyways he went out layed in bed all day because he was dying. As usual I took our son who also had autism to nursery, picked him up, did housework etc. I was annoyed but been fine all weekend. Roll round today he texts me when I was at my grandmas with our son saying we would watch something tonight even asked me to buy food. Then at 3 his friend asks him if he wants to go out tonight, he said no because last week he promised he wouldn’t go out on Sundays anymore (my reason being number one he should be up with us on a Monday morning, he doesn’t work, and I can’t settle when he’s out because of leaving the door open that time) a hour later he’s kicking off with me out of the blue because he hates our house, he’s so bored here, he hasn’t got a life and I’m like wtf turns out he wants to go out, I’ve said no at the end of the day there’s Friday you could have gone out, I asked you yesterday because I’ve ordered a new phone if you had plans for Monday so you could listen out for my new phone when I’m out dropping our son off at nursery and picking him up, it’s not like I’m going out and telling you to stay in and wait for it. He’s saying he has no life etc. I’m so sick of this all the time, he says he can’t go out on Fridays because his friends work unlike me I wouldn’t know what that’s like (I left college at 19 to care for my Mam who became disabled following a coma, then fell pregnant with my son, she passed away and I didn’t work the plan was when my son went to school, now my son has been diagnosed with autism so I look after him until he settles into school) he always has digs because I don’t work when we have been together nearly 5 years and he’s never held a job past a week, sits on his Xbox day in day out, says spending time downstairs with us bores him. I know I deserve more, last year I was badly depressed and he kept going out and left me, within a day he bedded someone else and within a week was in a relationship with her for 4 weeks, it crushed me, I didn’t eat or anything, he came back and then I find out she got pregnant and lost the baby (we tried for 3 years since our sons birth for a second baby and have secondary infertility so unsure weather I will ever have anymore. So as you can imagine him going out and getting someone else pregnant straight away killed me. I became quickly obsessed with needing to get pregnant, it hasn’t happened and in a weird way I think it doesn’t happen because we just aren’t meant to be. Him leaving me and getting someone else pregnant should have been the final nail in the coffin but I took him back anyways I do love him, but I’m starting to get tired of him going on like he has no life because he can’t go out drinking whenever he wants, he says to be happy I just have to let him have more of a life meaning he can go out mainly when he wants. I just want a quiet life I hardly go out I put my son first, all my friends partners are in with them everynight, go to work all day, hardly go out and i wonder what’s wrong with me and why mine doesn’t want to be like that. I think what puts me off saying no I’ve had enough of being treat like this is because of the way he behaved last time we split, he can move on better than I can he’s free to be out every night like he did, sleeping around. Now he’s having a go at me because his friend is on his back because he said he isn’t going out I’m just sick of it. My friends don’t hound me or have a go at me if I say I’m not going out. I don’t know why my partner has to explain himself when he isn’t going out either.
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