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Can I have a pp.
I have been with my husband for 4 years now. He is the love of my life, we have two gorgeous baby girls and he is brilliant with them. However he is addicted to cannabis and cocaine. Spending £450 a week on them. As a result of this I never get to spend a penny on myself because I am always worried about whether we will have enough money for the month. I would like to buy a house etc in the next couple of years and I earn enough for us to not worry if he did not have this god awful habit.
I work, do the shopping, washing. He looks after the children. When I get home I am tired and he criticises me for being tired – He now tells me I sit on my arse all day and then when I am at work I do nothing – It’s not hard work, so I shouldn’t be tired. I get up at half 5/ 6am with the kids and look after them all day (til I go to work at around 3pm) while he sleeps off his drug hangover) To which I do not know what kind of mood to expect. I make him breakfast every day – Dependent on his mood he will either eat it or throw the plate in a rage. He has now taken to pushing me around and has hit me a few times. He squirted a whole bottle of tomato ketchup on me the other day. He Shouts and does all this infront of our 20 month old who I am sure understands. I come from a really decent family and never imagined that I would end up in a situation like this. He tells me that I am cheating on him, which I am not and would never dream of. He says if he finds out who it is he will kill them! (good job there isn’t anyone then!huh? )
I can see it from his point of view. He isn’t I love him. He keeps telling me that I am argumentative and its partly my fault that we are not getting on but I feel like he has ground me down. This has been going on two years. I have become intolerant of his mood swings and his need for drugs, because we could have so much more and I am afraid that we are going to end up with nothing – I want to be able to support my girls and pay for them to go to school like my parents did, but at the moment that will not be possible. I don’t want them growing up in a broken home, but I don’t think that the environment that they are in at the moment is a good one.
I don’t have anyone to talk to about it.
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