can i have a pp please? sorry it’s a bit long just would like to be understood a…

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can i have a pp please?
sorry it’s a bit long just would like to be understood as much as possible.

I have a beautiful one year old boy but am having trouble with the father. I fell pregnant quickly with him (after 5 months of dating.. 1 of actually sleeping together) he promised to be there every step of the way. I was very happy. at 18 weeks pregnant he sent me a text saying that he was leaving me for his best mates girlfriend.. obviously I was angry but tried to keep it civil as we were going to be parents regardless of our problems. then he got back in contact with me at about 26 weeks pregnant.. he was literally a complete druggie by this point (he admitted this himself) i gave him a chance to sort himself out before the baby arrives but said no contact would be possible between me and him at that point as was very ill during pregnancy and didn’t need the added stress.. 35 weeks he got back in contact and looked a million times better was clean and feeling better about himself. I was induced at 38 weeks due to growth stopping. he didn’t come to the birth as he had court that day (i didn’t know till after as they put me straight in for induction same day i couldn’t get a hold of him he hid it from me) he was driving without a liscence etc. anyway was fine at first helped me a little not much but was grateful for any help i got as a ftm.. then everything blew up when the baby was 4 months old. nasty rumours about me doing drugs (by his ex that he left to come back to me) not true of course but they reached him and decided he wanted nothing to do with me or the child. I was fine i knew I’d manage myself. but then a week after his first birthday he begged to see the baby promised he was off the gear (clearly went back to drugs) and just wanted to see him. I had previously claimed child maintenance too which he clearly wasn’t happy about as he asked to come to an arrangement instead (after months of him ignoring cm they decided to take straight from wages) everytime we’ve spoke all hes said is about stopping maintenance. (not even officially started yet) i ignored that stuff and tried to keep it about the baby. he saw him for the first time since little 4 weeks ago. I said if he is going to be in his life it needs to be consistent. he hasn’t seen him since and have just found out he is taking cocaine again.. please is there someone who has been through this that can advise me on what to do? I don’t want to be the person to stop him seeing the child but I have to protect him too he is all I’ve got and im all hes got. he doesnt know his dad but I’m stuck… please help x
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