Can I have a ppp. I have a lot going on atm, split up with my partner of 3 years…

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Can I have a ppp.
I have a lot going on atm, split up with my partner of 3 years in July. (My choice, depressed not happy etc) we have a 1 year old together. I am now seeing somebody new who I’ve known for years. My ex wouldn’t leave me alone, always using our daughter as an excuse to come round (even when I’d want to try and take her to see him somewhere public etc) I have a recording of him being verbally aggressive threatening he’d hit me, he’s told me he’s burn my place down etc. I know it’s all mouth and no trousers but anyways I called police in process of getting a non molestation order on him so he can’t talk/see me but he can still see his daughter whenever he’d like thrkugh a 3rd party, aka, his mum.
Anyways for a good few years I’ve suffered with anxiety and drepression.
Doctor has put me on citalopram and it never worked(was on it the first time about 3 months) I come off. About a year ago I tried again was on it about 6 months it still didn’t help, I told my doctor he said to try counselling I don’t have the time for that. Single mum etc. I’ve got to the point where I feel like I should just give my daughter to her dad and just kill myself and I don’t feel like I’m enough. I just seem to break down and cry all the time, hate that I get mad at my daughter etc, I just feel like she deserves better and that’s not me. I’m severely depressed, I know this but I don’t know what to do as doctor won’t listen and I can’t do councilling as I don’t have the time.
Do not want to tell people how I’m feeling as I don’t want social services involved, in case they take her from me for being so depressed, she is literally the only thing keeping me going right now. I can’t talk to my ex about it (tried too many times in the relationship) all I got was “go take some pills” “your a depressive cunt” etc. Don’t want to talk to my new partner about it either.
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