Can i have a PPP **possible trigger warning*** I have ptsd from a very hard an…

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Can i have a PPP

**possible trigger warning***

I have ptsd from a very hard and tramatic pregnancy, resulting in ppd and ppa (depression and anxiety before baby, just worse and reguarding different triggers postpartum) and the main issue i have is regarding the fact that im going to die one day. This is actually my most severe trigger.

Tonight i woke up from a very deep sleep gasping for air, coughing and very confused. I have no idea what happened, it might have been nothing, but it triggered me anyways. Ive been up the passed two hours panicking, thinking what will happen to my 10mo daughter if i suddenly die in my sleep. Im a single mom and i probably wouldn’t be found for days or weeks even because i dont regularly speak to my immediate family. I dont have friends. I have a job, but im almost positive that they wouldnt default to “oh she might have died” if i didnt show up to work one day. They would probably think i just quit.. im having a seriously hard time with this and my heart is racing. What is a logical plan i could set in place in case i suddenly die given the circumstances?
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