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Can I have a private post please?..
I’ve currently found out I’m pregnant, I’m about 4 weeks.. This would be my third baby, but my partners first, I have two children from my last relationship, one almost 4 and one just turned 1.. me and my partner have been together 8 months, and the way he’s reacted to this pregnancy has left me feeling so shit.. He is pretty much making the decision to terminate the pregnancy but in my heart I just want the chance to be a family.. he was all fine and well until he told him mum (him being a mummy’s boy) she decided it’s just not the best time.. So I’ve gone along with it and tried to forget what’s happening, on Monday we had a massive row just because I mentioned keeping the baby and giving ourselfs the chance to be a family.. am I being out of order? Any how he ended the relationship, the next morning decided we weren’t split up but he needed time to think about things (baring in mind he was the one to completely over react to the conversation) and the he’s told me the only way I can earn his trust back is to terminate the pregnancy? I see that as being unfair but I feel like I have to do it to keep him and his mummy happy..! It’s breaking my heart because I’m so attached to something already and I just want things to be ok.. But in reality it’s really not? Without sounding selfish I wouldn’t want to be alone with 3 children.. I want the family life I want the chance to share a pregnancy and enjoy it because my son and daughters dad was absolutely awful whilst I was pregnant with our daughter.. I can’t go through that again… But is it bad that I’m just thinking on the other side than he is? Am I supposed to do as I’m told and we’ll all live happily ever after??! So stressed out it’s made me feel drained!!! So sorry for the long post but I feel better letting it all out x
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