Can I have pp please? Please bare with me as it’s a long one. So I have 2 kids …
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Can I have pp please?
Please bare with me as it’s a long one. So I have 2 kids ones 6 other is 5 months I’m suffering with severe postnatal depression antidepressants counciling etc I’m struggling with absolutely everything my husband is classed as disabled got lots of autoimmune diseases and arthritis I absolutely love the dear bones off him and I’ve looked after him for past 3 years when he was first diagnosed we have been together 8 years. He’s lost touch with his friends family etc he’s got severe social anxiety won’t speak to hardly anyone he sleeps all day awake all night which I know is part of the illnesses he suffers with I don’t know much more of this i can take with him I understand I must sound like a absolute monster of a wife but my youngest is so hardwork my eldest is cheeky as anything and is constantly running circles around us. Me and my hubby don’t sleep in the same bed we haven’t been intimate in months as he finds it too painful I feel completely alone I’ve spoken to him about the way I feel and nothing ever changes I understand he’s in pain day and night but I’m only asking for a hug and to be there for me he keeps saying he is but I don’t feel like he is we have spoken with him untill I’m blue in the face I drop hints for cuddles here and there etc he never gets it I’ve even sat there and begged for cuddles and he’s gone oh my shoulders hurting. I struggle day and night with the kids I’m up all night with the baby with no help I’m constantly exhausted my house is constantly a tip I’m crying everyday and I just don’t know what to do. We have been through so much in the last 8 years and I’m determined not to give up and i know I love him more than life itself and I could never imagine him not in my life but im now questioning everything because of how miserable we all are I blame him he blames me etc and I’m fed up of feeling lonely unloved least if we ain’t together I ain’t constantly running around after him in top of the kids. Trust me before you all bash I know how awful this sounds but I’ve tried my damnest I don’t know what to do I can’t leave him because he has nowhere to go and I’d never see him out on the street I also know how he struggles everyday and I know he wouldn’t cope without me I guess I’m just missing my man he’s used to look after us I just need a vent because I don’t know if I can go on like this no more bearing in mind I’m only 23 and I’ve never been nightclubbing etc I’ve given up absolutely everything for him which I don’t regret I love my kids and don’t regret having them young I love being a young mother but it’s our relationship I hope theres someone out there who will understand what I mean and have some advice because im totally confused broken and lonely. Tia xxxxxx
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