Could I have a private post please? I need advice from anyone that is in the s…

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Could I have a private post please?

I need advice from anyone that is in the same boat as me of has been?
I’m struggling so much atm as I feel as though there’s nothing there between me and my partner anymore.
I’ve tried so hard to get us back on track but nothing’s working. We have been together on and of for 9 years. We spent 4 solid years together and then broke up for 2 and in that time he begged for me back every single day, his love for me was so strong but I wasn’t in the best of places since I’d met someone els and had a child with that person. Then when my daughter was 8months old me and her dad broke up and he decided he didn’t want no contact as he was going to prison.
Then when my daughter was 15months old me and my partner decided to try and give things another go. Everything was going perfect. I fell pregnant with his child and the pregnancy couldn’t of gone any better our relationship was as if we had never broke up.
Then when our daughter was born his dad died just a week before.
This destroyed him.
He started gambling and we started arguing constantly about everything and anything.
I got very bad PND and pushed him away, I couldn’t even let him touch me not even a little cuddle for months.
I became so protective over my children to and completely pushed him out! But at the time I didn’t realise I was doing it..
I’m completely 100% better now but I’m pretty sure he still hates me for it.
I’ve tried everything to make our relationship better.
He now speaks to me like shit.
He has become so lazy and horrible.
He has no interest in anything and even our kids get pushed out by him. He’s just never happy! I really don’t know what to do? He’s never been like this he’s always been so lovely it’s why I fell in love with him? He won’t admit he’s depressed. He’s in denial about everything! He hates me and everything I do get him angry and stressed? I spend night after night crying my eyes out because I feel so alone.
I’ve got two children and I’m also bringing up my 10 year old sister, and we have just moved in to a house together that we are renting! I feel like I’m stuck and I can’t do nothing!

(Sorry for the long post) x
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