Having had 2 ectopics, needing advice! I have a partner of 5 years we have 2 chi…

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Having had 2 ectopics, needing advice!
I have a partner of 5 years we have 2 children together nearly 2 year old boy, and 3 year old daughter.
I’ve been on the pill since having my 2 children. This August I conceived somehow, I didn’t miss any of my pills, as I have a reminder set on my phone to take it every morning. Anyway it turned out to be a ectopic pregnancy, in my right fallopian tube which resulted in surgery and being removed.
After this I was a complete mess and had almost like a breakdown and had mental health services involved, had time off work and mine and my partners relationship completely broken down, and was arguing every single day. In this time we lived in a 1 bedroom 1st floor flat, we have now moved to a 3 bedroom house which I am so great full for and was happy for a little. Until I decided to have a snoop on his phone and found messages to another women ******** me off and how much of a bad mum is am, and that he wanted to be with her. I found out went completely mad and we spoke about a lot of things that we’ve both kept in and hidden for years but this happening gave us a chance to open up and I forgave him as he didn’t cheat it seemed he needed someone to vent to. Moving on into October I found out conceived again, by being on the pill but having antibiotics interrupted and the pregnancy was found in my c section scar this time, so again not in the right place again. It almost felt like a repeat performance of what only happened a few months ago. The surgery was so complicated I was sent to Oxford Radcliffe hospital, for them to remove the pregnancy. After my 1st ectopic in August I began drinking every evening when the children and partner, where in bed and it became an alcoholic problem. Since being in hospital since the 14th of this month I completed a full detox from alocohol with help of medications, and am being discharged this evening to see my partner and children. I feel proud and happy I got through the detox but feeling very anxious at the same time but even though it was for a short while I am now I’m recovery. The only strange feeling I have is that the last loss of this pregnancy, has made me want another, when before I never wanted anymore children. Anyway thank you for reading and look forward to some feedback and maybe people who have had similar experiences to me that would like to share their experiences with me. Thanks again for reading.
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