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Hey. Can I have a private post please. Don’t really know where to start. Sorry it’s a long one.
I’m 23 single parent work part time and have to boys (4 and nearly 7). My eldest sons dad don’t really bother with him and my Youngest sons dad ain’t allowed nothing to do with us (domestic violence , smashing my windows ,stealing and so much more) indefinite restraining order in place. Anyways my youngest is good as gold. Only needs to be told once when in the wrong etc. But I’m really really struggling with my eldest. It’s been ongoing for years now (he did witness some of the violence towards me and that when I was with my youngest sons dad ) but everything just seems to be getting worse and I don’t know where to turn 😩. He’s being assessed for ADHD at school. Always playing up there not listening or concentrating at work. He’s very very hyper randomly screams never wants to listen and is such a handful. He won’t go to sleep unless I’m in bed with him and he has to lay on my arm and if I leave him in the room he will just scream and cry like he’s being attacked . I really try my best. He can be so good one day and then the next we are back to square one. I feel I can never do/even want to do stuff with them both now because of my eldest behaviour and then I’m left heart broken because my youngest just seems to b missing out😩I really really want to try help eldest Cz all I seem to do is just b constantly at his throat about his behaviour and even family members won’t have him Cz he’s such a handful. My heart really does break for him because he really seems to not b able to control any of it. I just want the mum spirit back. Happy to come home and see them. Not wanting to run for the hills every day. I love my boys all the world and would give my life to them. But just can’t seem to shift this down tired mood. And now feel like I’m just failing as a parent. I really don’t know what else I can do to help him. Just feel the whole worlds on my shoulders and have no one to turn to for advice or help 😩💔💔
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