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Hi can I have a ppp. I just don’t even know what to do anymore my head is allover the place. I am 39 weeks pregnant and feel so alone. I feel so scared and feel like I have no support off any one. I have been feeling loads of emotions recently and feel like no one understands. A couple month ago I was having images in my head of people picking up my newborn and dropping him and my anxiety went through the roof I said I didn’t want anyone to hold him when he was born or anything but since then I have been alot calmer and better. However im having a lot of problems atm with my partners family. They always ring him up and tell him how it is and he is such a pushover he lets them tell us how it is and i really dont like it. We had plans today and they rang him up said they are near our house and wont be long and he just said ok. I was so mad and stormed out the house and he has told me I am out of order. Im so upset how he just lets them always tell us what to do and never says “well hang on actually we have stuff to do” because i know if we did that to them thats what we would get. I told my partner when the baby is born when I am in hospital my wishes are that I dont want anybody to visit until we are home I only want my mother and his and obviously him there but I have a feeling that the rest will just turn up and do what they want and I have sat down and spoke to my partner and told him all of this and that he needs to support me because I am getting too upset anxious and worked up and it really isn’t good for our baby. He is too soft and I just don’t know what else to do. I feel like when I have the baby it is just all going to be too overwhelming for me and I am just going to see red and it all hit me at once. Please tell me I am not alone and please tell me I am not being stupid because when i try to talk to people about it they say I am over reacting and over the top. My emotions are all over the place at the moment and I really need somebody to talk to who understands. I need him to stop being a pushover because I feel like I’m going to end up with post natal problems because of it all. I’m so scared to even talk to doctors or midwives or anything incase they think I’m crazy and get ss involved. I am so upset and feel so alone I can’t stop crying😢😢😢😢 Tia
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