Hi could I have a private post please. So me and my partner have been together…

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Hi could I have a private post please.

So me and my partner have been together 4.5 years and have a 6 month old together. I’ll admit, since having our son, my self confidence and gone to shit, I hate the look of myself especially naked, so when we have sex I keep my top on to hide my horrid belly (I was always slim but I now have a horrid over hang from my 8 and a half pounder and stretch marks which make me physically feel sick 😭) , and since labour i get an awful stinging/tearing feeling down there (I had an episiotomy but it’s not there it hurts) . So tbh I’ve not really wanted to do it that much.

I’ve always been really open minded about porn and stuff but today I went out for approx 40 mins, come back to find him trousers down with porn hub up, I never thought it would upset me quite as much as it actually has, I think before having our son I’d have not been overly bothered but now, he’s watching slim, not stretch marked women and I honestly feel like just running away 😢 I feel sick!! And not good enough, even though I’ve put myself through the worst pain possible and ruined my body for our beautiful boy. I’ve come straight upstairs and shut myself in our sons nursery and I’m balling my eyes out while he’s downstairs watching some stupid cartoon oblivious to how he’s just made me feel. I don’t even know what I’m looking for tbh. But I have no one I can talk to around me, especially about something like this 😢
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