Hi Could you share this please, anonymously? I am a mum of two healthy boys (…

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Hi
Could you share this please, anonymously?

I am a mum of two healthy boys (wanting another child, girl would be amazing but I’d be just as happy with a boy)
My boys are 6 and 3years and I lost one in between at 8 weeks pregnant.
My husband struggles with pregnancy😂
He is the most amazing husband and father (we met at 17, travelled the world together, so had a lovely life before settling down) but he really doesn’t want another baby. He is a really hands on dad, we both work full time so share jobs! However I still do a lot more housework etc but he certainly helps me.
I didn’t want to start a family at 26 however he really did so I agreed and soon couldn’t wait once we started trying and so thankful we caught within weeks. I have set up my own business so the last year and half hasn’t been easy and he has really stepped up to being mummy and Daddy. We are comfortable, have a loving supportive family and childcare sorted, my hours have started to reduce so I work three days now and the odd evening or afternoon around the children which has meant more quality time and a nice clean home and sometimes tea prepared!
I have always known I wanted 3 children, we are both one of five! Almost immediately after my youngest I knew I wanted another however we agreed to wait and then the business took over and then we said we’d wait another year to see how we both felt. I am still so sure I want another baby and get really upset almost daily the thought of not whereas he is so certain he doesn’t and it will split us up. I know how hard another child will be however i want it more than anything (my youngest starts full time next September) so in my head i plan to enjoy them both and normal life again for a few more months before trying (although my plan wont happen as hes so set) I also don’t want a big gap. Both boys always slept through the night so we’ve always had a good night’s sleep. My youngest is a stubborn child who often becomes a challenge but like most 3 year olds! We are both so happy ( i wont lie tired as are all parents, as kids keep us so busy) but they are healthy boys. I can’t get rid of this feeling and I know I will begin to resent him as will he resent me if we did. We continue to argue only ever about this and either way I’m not sure how we can both be happy.
Please help? Any advice would be greatly appreciated.
Thank you.
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