Hi I am out of a abusive relationship and have been for 3yrs now. My ex was my 1…

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Hi I am out of a abusive relationship and have been for 3yrs now. My ex was my 1st and only and I was with him for 10yrs, 5 of those we were married. I had been physically and mentally abuse. I am safe guarded from him but my son still goes to contact. Absolute minimum amount. I didn’t want to stop my son from seeing him as he has a right to see his dad but wanted it safe as he had disclosed his dad was hitting him. My son is still being abused mentally but professionals say I am better still letting him go than stopping him. I do suffer with anxiety and depression and have PTSD. My ex finally left the family home on boxing day of all days. My question to you is how do you gain yourself worth back! I find it very difficult to do this ‘selfcare’ stuff as I’ve been so use to being the last in the line and I can’t help but always put my son 1st and get him everything he needs. I put a lot of weight on when I was in the relationship and altho I’ve lost some of the weight being out of the relationship, I still haven’t lost enough. I feel like nothing most, if not all of the time and I find the only thing keeping me going with life is my son. So many people say I need to find a boyfriend and move on but I don’t feel ready and I don’t even think any man would be attracted to me! So I guess the point of my message is to ask for advice on how to find myself worth again. Please could you keep me anonymous if you post to page please as I would fear my ex would find out about this post and I would hate for him to know for certain he’s still able to control me, even tho he had been cheating on me throughout the whole of our relationship and moved straight in with one of the girls he’d been cheating on me with. I don’t blame her for anything as I font know what lies he’d been telling her. I know the lies he told me now let alone what he’s telling her. If anything I feel sorry for her.
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