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I dont really know where to start. I havent felt myself in a long time. My mood is very low im snappy and then the next day im fine im constantly up and down. I try and get myself to snap out of it and push myself to get motivated and it works for a while then i just go downhill again. Where i just want to hide and be on my own and not do anything.which is hard as i have two kids. My partner constantly puts me down about my appearance and uses the same words i used to be bullied with at school. When i go out in public i get really scared and my palms get really sweaty and i cant sit still have to fiddle with my coat or bag. My son was born with many health conditions which is really hard to cope with.i feel like im failing at being a mum actually failing at everything i dont know what to do. I feel like anyone i try and talk to is just to busy and i shouldnt put my problems on them. I went to the doctors before and she gave me some tablets to lift my mood but my partner foind them and threw them in the dustbin and said i would get addicted to them. I really dont know what to do i have self harmed in the past and get the urges to do it again but i stop myself because of the kids. I dont know what im looking for really i just dont want to feel like this anymore. My house is a mess im constantly eating to get a good feeling ive started smoking again what shall i do ?
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I dont really know where to start. I havent felt myself in a long time. My mood …
