I need to vent. RE: PARTNER WITH DEPRESSION? PERSONALITY DISORDER? Please frien…

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I need to vent.
RE: PARTNER WITH DEPRESSION? PERSONALITY DISORDER?
Please friends….

My bf and i have had a rocky road the last 2 years. I was the lady that posted here months ago that I had had a hard time as his family didn’t want him with me and he felt stuck in the middle. I was feeling hurt that he felt torn and didn’t just stand by me over it all.
ANYWAY I still see him and we had Friday off work together and a great 2 days full of picnics..bbqs…pubs…sun….bands….music….love…lovemaking…smiles and happiness. MY PROBLEM IS that he is claiming he is depressed and has anxiety issues which keep leaving me out in the cold 😞
We spend time together and when he’s with me he’s totally happy and stable and calm a loving. We make the most of every moment. But when he goes from me he changes? When he goes back home? Or when he’s doing something else.
When he’s away from me there is little contact. Yesterday he said he was recording with a friend in the day and would stay in touch now and then. I rang him twice during the day and nothing. He eventually text me at midnight saying he had just finished, was dropped the guy home and would call after. I’d not heard from him since a text at 9am.
Today…Yes it’s father’s day…but he said he’d sort the day and maybe see me. I rang at 11am and nothing. I assumed he had gone out with this family. He text at 4pm saying he was getting ready to go out. So he’d been in all day and not called me back. So now he’s gone off the day and into the night with his family and there won’t be any contact.
I feel like I’m going mad 😞

I ask him why he doesn’t stay in touch and he goes mental. He claims he is depressed. And has bad anxiety. I certainly know that he is having a crazy time in his life. He walked out of his job last week…has been there for 13 years. Not something to do lightly! He grabbed his coat without telling anyone and walked out. Ignored all his managers calling all day. Rang me and said he could take it there anymore. Went to the dr to get an appointment to discuss his mental state. There is something wrong. I get that. He was always a calm docile person and he seems full of anger all the time atm. I see a day of the kind guy I know…but he changes.
I try to tell myself hea clearly not well. But his moods towards me change totally when were apart. I try to stay in touch…but he seems to get angry with me. Feels he is answerable if j ever text saying hi and asking what he’s up to? He says he’s just trying to live his life?? He says crazy things like he loves me but can’t cope with things and if I ring or text him a few times in the day or night. He says he wants to be left alone? And will shout and say horrible things. Yet another day he may be beautiful to me? Takes me out…pays…drives…apologises…said last week he knows he puts me through hell at times. Says that we are forever and we will be ok. Then today tells me to go away. I had the most amazing 2 days with him Thursday and Friday.
I keep telling myself he is unwell…but every day I have no idea what the day will bring.
Can anyone help me know how to deal and tell me how to stop getting so upset? X xxx
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