MY Mum Died And I Should Of Saved Her

One woman has shared her mums last words written in a letter addressed to her daughter.

Juliana Donaldsons Mum Cynthia Heath aged 47 took her own life April this year, Juliana wants to raise awareness of mental health.

MY Mum Died And I Should Of Saved Her, the following may be distressing or upsetting to some but it is important to read.

In her letter you can hear the pain:

“Today’s the day I die, today’s the day I will find my peace, tomorrow will never come, no more pain, no more fear, no more silent nights, I feel excited for the first time in a decade.

I will miss my family and I know I will hurt them with my actions, but my hurt is too real.

I cannot spend another night in the company of my thoughts, I forever feel like I’m falling and I can’t get up, I am drowning but I cannot die, My mind is a river which I cannot dam.

Today’s the day when I will run free, I will not have to fake a smile or pretend all is ok.

Today is my day, my day in the sun, away from the storm in my eyes.

I hope my family in time will forgive me and see for once I put myself first, this is my choice and not something I have done lightly.

I am free

I am safe

I am done

I am tired, my eyes grow heavy, my thoughts are clear.

All I feel is love, I am me.

I love you all

With all my love Mum

Juliana told us her mother had battled with depression for several years and she doesn’t hate her mother for her actions but blames herself for not supporting her more and pushing her to get help.

Juliana begs that anyone who is suffering from a mental health condition, seeks help and families and friends don’t push the topic under the carpet.

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