NBR but Private post please, I don’t want pity I wanna know people who been thro…
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NBR but Private post please, I don’t want pity I wanna know people who been through this does it get easier please😞😪
Long story short since I was around 12 I’ve always felt depressed, low and like I had no reason to live, I was bullied most of primary school so I think that’s the trigger maybe? Anyways I was always shutting people out, sleeping literally 14+ hours a day and faking a smile everyday, 3rd year came I hit rock bottom I was sleeping all day everyday, I stopped eating and making myself sick, hoarding myself away inside, crying myself to sleep, self harming everyday ect…. anyway I got myself out of that ‘rut’ and haven’t cut in 2 years but recently I’ve been feeling so down and like I’m slipping again and don’t know how to stop myself, my biggest struggle is being comfortable in my own body I’m always comparing myself to skinny girls and changing my image to be like them😞I’ve been to counselling in school and they didn’t help and I don’t want to tell my doctor and be called a freak, if I do tell my doctor it stays with them forever like I’m only 19 what happens if I have mental health problems and start a family one day, I feel like being a mother is my dream job and would do anything for my child I would have lots of motivation and would be the best mum going I know in my heart I would but if you have depression I feel like I would be called a ‘bad mum’ and they take my child off me because of it, does any mums have depression and how do they get through it?☹why has depression such a bad stigma just because you have it doesn’t mean your a bad person or bad mum right? Mental health needs to talked more about and not make you feel ‘outcasted’ or a ‘freak’😓😓xx
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