Today, I didn’t like being a mom.
Today, I yelled more than I loved.
Today, I cried.
Today, my kids picked on each other all day.
Today, I don’t remember smiling.
Today, I don’t remember laughing.
Today, I wanted to pack up and go sit on a beach with a cold drink completely alone.
Today, I didn’t want to be around my kids.
Today, I didn’t like my kids, but that doesn’t mean I don’t love them.
Today, the mom guilt is more than I’ve ever felt in all 11 years of parenting.
A toddler who got me up at 4:45am, then fought for an hour for a nap.
A hormonal pre teen who is trying to navigate his new found emotions.
So, I’m going to lay here, drink my mine, maybe cry some more, and hope tomorrow is better.
I’ll pray for more patience, a calmer heart, and a good nights sleep.
I want moms to know they aren’t alone. It’s ok to want time away from your kids. It’s ok if you snuck to the bathroom to cry. It’s ok if you can’t wait for bedtime.
Stop making moms feel they need to love every second of every day of motherhood, because they don’t.
It’s hard. It’s so freaking hard.
So, cheers to you mama, (or dad) I’ll just be laying here, regretting how much I yelled today, and strive to better tomorrow.
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