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Can I have a post please?
I feel like I am addicted to food, I eat all the time.. eat, eat, eat 😭 I have put on loads of weight I don’t even recognise myself anymore, I look in the mirror and I’m disgusted by what’s looking back, I get out of breath walking up the stairs, I’m not a good shape at all! I can’t bare talking to a doctor because the anxiety in me keeps saying the doctor will laugh at me, I don’t know how to stop this need for food, I eat even tho I am full.. I will get a massive bar of chocolate then after eating that I will look in the fridge for more food 😭 i asked my auntie before i went to a christening whom I was being god parent at “can you tell Iv put weight on” …. she replied with “yes” .. when I walk in the street my heads saying that people are laughing at me/ judging me/ talking about my weight.. what can I do to stop these cravings! I stopped smoking completely months back, cold turkey…. no e-cig.. nothing.. I have the implant in.. these are things that can also cause weight gain and to think that I could get bigger is mortifying! I can’t go to slimming world I am a single parent.. (well, my boys dad lives hundreds and hundreds of miles away) and my boys are at that age where one will keep saying he’s bored and the other will just want to run around ❤️ .. I want to feel good about my self, I don’t wear make up no more, or even brush my hair I just shove it up because of my wrong I have lost that drive, no wonder why I am single tho because I am disgusting, I’m nothing special the skin around my eyes are going yellow! Countless of times I have been to doctors about this who just say it’s because I’m “tired” yeah I’m tired because I don’t sleep with all the sugar I eat on a night time.. the only thing I praise my self on is being a brilliant mam to my beautiful boys, but I need to get my self happy again for them.. anyone have any advice please ❤️ thank you for reading
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