ANON Ok so I need some advice or reassurance, I don’t know, just not hate pleas…
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ANON
Ok so I need some advice or reassurance, I don’t know, just not hate please…
I am a single Mummy of 3 children aged 9, 6 and 2 after leaving a 9 year relationship in April last year. At the beginning of the year I met a man 5 years my junior (I’m 30) and all was going well until I fell pregnant, despite being on the mini pill. Since then he has acted like a child, refusing to see me or talk about the pregnancy, other than to suggest I have an abortion as he ‘doesn’t want me to be on my own with 4 kids’ (which lets face it will be true.) and ‘nobody will ever look twice at a single mum with 4 kids’.
Anyway, I went to an abortion clinic yesterday for a consultation and I think the lady scanning me knew I wasn’t sure on what to do so put me forward for pre-abortion counselling but booked me in for a termination this Thursday.
Whilst there, alone, i just found myself looking at all the other women with their partners who i felt were looking completely unphased by the whole thing, laughing and chatting away. It just felt so surreal. Like they were waiting to see the dentist or something.
I’m just so confused on what to do. I am currently in temporary accommodation after losing my home during my separation, working 2 jobs just to get by (one of which I’ve only just started and am on a 6 month probationary period and so petrified they will terminate my contract when they find out), driving a shitty, broken car and feeling so alone as i live 300 miles away from my family so my kids can still have a relationship with their dad. I’m just so confused and upset with it all. Most of my friends are pushing me towards termination, telling me I’d be insane to keep it. But its already there and growing. I’m just not sure i can cope with either choice i make š
Like i say, please dont get your claws out. I know how abortion works and protection and how a baby grows etc etc. I just need some sort of support or someone to tell me a story similar to mine thats worked out for them.
Oh also can i just say, im not trapping my baby’s dad, ive told him that if i go ahead he’s either involved from the off or not, there’s no coming in and out of it’s life.
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