Can I get a post please? (Sorry another I know but I have no one else to talk to…

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Can I get a post please? (Sorry another I know but I have no one else to talk to)

I recently came out of a domestically abusive relationship and became a single parent to our son. Ever since my son was around 6 weeks I knew that there was something wrong with myself I became unhappy and I didn’t know why. I did some re search and came to believe that I had post natal depression. Things kept getting worse and people kept asking me if I was depressed but I didn’t tell them I kept it to myself but I was so afraid to why I was feeling like this. When my health visitor would come round and ask me I’d lie and say I was fine but deep down I was begging for help. Anyway my sons now 15 months and I’ve finally come to the conclusion that now I need help. My sons father attacked me 3 months ago and has been charged and with a restraining order. I’m devastated because I love him. I know that I need to go to my gp but I’m just so scared with being a single mum I only just got social services of my case I’m worried my gp will get them back. I’m so afraid I’ll look weak and they will think I cannot cope with my child. It’s not like that though. I know I’m getting more and more depressed because I have 0 motivation to do anything. I just want to lie in bed all day doing nothing. I’ve truly never felt so alone, miserable and helpless. Please tell me single parents have gone to the gp because they are depressed and they haven’t been looked down upon? Also to add I’m 21 so still young another thing to go against me.

Please no bashing you are all I have to talk to. Thanks x
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