Can I have a private post please?? I’ve been with my other half for almost 4 ye…

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Can I have a private post please??
I’ve been with my other half for almost 4 years now I’m 4 weeks away from giving birth to our first child so I’m quite heavily pregnant. He hasn’t been going near me and blames it on he “finds it weird cause his daughter is in there” and he doesn’t want to “hurt her or me”. Anyway I knew that he must be doing something elsewhere because before I fell pregnant we were really sexually active and he can’t go that long without doing anything. I don’t mind porn in the slightest but what I found was pictures he’d obviously been using to pleasure himself of people that I and he actually knows. It really broke my heart, the fact they weren’t just pornstars and the girls were skinny as and looked nothing like me. Me being 36 weeks gone he knows how depressed I am about the way I look and how much it’s getting me down, I cry everytime I have to go out because I’m so insecure and feel so ugly and disgusting. Since this I can’t get over it, I’m holding a grudge and badly, I don’t want to split with him he’s the love of my life, he’s expressed how much he loves me and how sorry he is for making me feel this way but I’m so bitter and feel like it’s not enough. I feel like I’m sinking into depression and feel stressed and anxious and constantly on edge checking his phone instead of sleeping and logging into his Facebook at every hour of the day to check he’s not done it again to me. It might sound like I’m being pathetic but honestly porn would be fine I think because I know the people in these pictures it’s taken it a step further and I just don’t know what to do. I don’t want to stress out my unborn baby and I don’t want to leave but all I feel is hatred towards him and I’m just stuck 😭
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