Can I have a private post please Okay so I’m gunna sound really stupid when I …

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Can I have a private post please

Okay so I’m gunna sound really stupid when I say this but it’s something that has really bugged me and I can’t help but feel annoyed . So my daughter has been in and out of hospital with seizures and nearly died last week due to having one and stopped breathing , and she hasn’t been diagnosed which I will be looking into . Anyway, I was looking for a seizure monitor for when my daughter sleeps so that it gives me a bit of relaxation on the night time so I can actually sleep and not sit by her bedside for hours making sure she’s ok, I’m so sleep deprived and exsausted . Anyway the machine I want is £239. And I did a go fund me page as it’s close to Christmas and I just can’t afford that much right now so I tried asking for support. My step nanna turned up yesterday with £300 and said get the monitor you want & I was so grateful of course it meant so much! I will be paying her this money back as soon as Christmas is over with , however she’s told my mum to sort it out for me , by that I thought it meant I can choose it ect but my mum will look into it to make sure it’s legit , anyway my mum has the money in her bank and she’s saying she’s ringing my health visitor etc to see if she can get it free : or cheaper . Now I’ve found the one I WOULD like for MY DAUGHTER but my mother seems to be thinking she’s in control and can decide what machine she’s getting as my nanna told her to sort it , I can’t help but feel angry because I’m paying my nanna back and imgunna be the one sleeping with my daughter at night my mum doesn’t have her overnight as she says she doesn’t want to loose out on sleep which is fine that’s her choice but it’s me who’s dealing with the anxiety every night of being by her bedside & i wanna choose the machine that I’m conftable with especially considering I’m gunna be the one paying this money back. Please tell me if I’m being selfish? My mum is saying I’m being immature and pathetic but I think I’m entitled to it as she’s my daughter and all my mum seems to do is try and control and take over my role as a mother . I can’t even take her out to a friends house if my mum doesn’t like them that’s how much my mum try’s to control me .
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