Can I have a private post, please? Me, my husband and our baby are living in a f…

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Can I have a private post, please?
Me, my husband and our baby are living in a flat together with a couple (my husband’s colleagues from work). They moved in with us to a new place when I was 6 months pregnant. At the beginning everything was fine but then little by little they started to get on my nerves (hair and food on the floor, uncleaned table after they ate, listening very loud to death metal etc.) Later on it turned out they are both smoking weed (the fact they didn’t tell us about). After the discussion with them they promised to smoke it somewhere outside, never again on the balcony (respecting the neighbours).
Those are probably ‘silly’ things for a lot of people but I haven’t lied about anything, they knew I’m pregnant since the beginning.
But the reason why I asked for this post is that recently I started to have a lot of stuff on my head, I went to the college, milk from my breasts disappeared, baby (4 months old) got demanding, sleeps all night and doesn’t want to take a nap during the day. Of course, my husband, who works on the night shift, said it’s my fault that our son doesn’t want to sleep (but he sleeps until those idiots won’t wake him up on purpose). Also, I have had a lot of stress with my LO because he caught chest infection from the flatmate, so I had very difficult time because he was getting worse (now, thank God, he’s feeling well). When that guy spoke with me he said that he also made his girlfriend’s little sister sick and was so proud about this that if I didn’t hold my baby in my arms I think I would hit him.
In the end, I spoke with my husband how I feel, how he makes me feel like when he has a go at me and told him very honestly that I will get depression. That day I cried but we talked and it gave me relief as now he understands how I feel and doesn’t say things like that anymore. And I was fine until this evening when I came back from school and he told me that baby didn’t want to sleep, so he came to the living room with him and that girlfriend was there. The LO was crying, so she asked if she can hold him and as soon as she took him in her arms he stopped crying but started to rub his head on her chest (breasts) with a smile – sth that he does only with me. When my husband told me I lost it. I feel like my heart is broken because when I’m not at home a stranger is replacing his real mother. It hurts and maybe you would say that he would do the same with his grandma – but in the end family is family. And they also offered to my husband to leave the baby with them when he’s sleeping, so he can rest but he told them a big NO as the baby must be fed, changed etc. and it’s sth they’ve got no idea about. But later on he told me he doesn’t trust him but on the other hand she knows how to handle a baby?
I don’t know if sb understands that or maybe I’m oversensitive… But I just feel like I’m alone with everything because my husband changes his mind as the wind blows. One day he calls them irresponsible idiots but the next one is sitting with them and laughing. I feel like I’m the only one fighting for my and my baby’s rights.
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