Could I have a ppp!! Please no bashing 2 years ago I left my abusive ex emot…

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Could I have a ppp!!

Please no bashing 😔😔

2 years ago I left my abusive ex emotionally and physically..

I have flash backs of him about 5 times a day still and I’m up all night some times physically sick thinking he’s coming for me ,

He got charged for attacking me he kept me hostage with a knife but practically plead guilty and got off with it . I have no doubt in my mind that he was going to kill me .

We have a child together but had no proper contact with him but it doesn’t stop me worrying 😔😔

I can’t look in the mirror or take pictures of myself I think I’m ugly and disgusting and think that’s how others see me aswell 😔😔

The police moved me and my son away I’ve stayed here a while now and kept myself to myself so have no one to speak to 😔

I started working and in my head thought of escape routes incase my ex turned up . One of my colleagues decided to start bulling me calling me fat saying I’m ugly etc I burst out crying I don’t think I can go back 😭😭

I met one person in the past two years an old friend but I had to tell him to leave he asked why and I was scared incase he was going to turn on me he wasn’t like that but I’m just so confused.

I’m finally taking the courage to go to the doctors and see if they can help me 😔😔 but I don’t know If they can because it’s not like medicine will make him disappear x
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