Hello can I have a ppp I need some help, I was with my now ex for 10 years, we …

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Hello can I have a ppp

I need some help, I was with my now ex for 10 years, we was each others first and only everything from sex to getting our first home together and so on until recently I have been told by him that he has been cheating on me for 3 months with his best mates pregnant wife (her baby is her husbands). During that time we did break up for a short period of time, (I didn’t know he was seeing her) but he just walked out and left me and his 2 kids while I was pregnant, he was staying with his best mate and her.

Anyway The bad thing about all this is and that makes me feel sick, is that I was pregnant with his 3rd child and the day he left me a few hours before hand I told him I feel really ill and I was having cramps I needed him to be there with me and to help with our 2 kids as I was so weak and couldn’t do anything. So anyway during the time he left I stayed with my mum and she helped me. About 2 weeks after he left I had my first scan (we did get back together this day) and to find out that we sadly had a miscarriage, it really hit me hard. But to think that after finding this out to of having to wait over a week with my baby still inside of me before I went into hospital to have the surgical treatment that he went and slept with her, why her son and husband was in the next room and at this point we was together just makes this 10x worse obviously now thinking back on it.

To know that he didn’t come and see his kids after work even though where I was staying his work was 2 seconds down the road but because he was lying to me saying he was finishing work really late but really he was with her and her son. It not fair on his own kids wondering where there dad is calling for him they was missing him and he didn’t seem to care.

I did find out a lot more. it ain’t the first time she has cheated on her husband, her husband is such a lovely bloke and was a good friend to my ex.
Anyway back to the point He has been saying his sorry it was the biggest mistake of his life, saying that he doesn’t want to loose his family, he constantly messaging saying sorry and so on, I don’t think I can believe him as he has lied to me for 3 months.

But what I’m trying to ask is how do you move past this? How do u get all theses thought out of your head?
I can’t seem to forget it, it’s getting me down big time and after the miscarriage I don’t know how I am managing to cope right now, I just don’t know what to do anymore. I’m stuck in this situation because I do love him and I do want to be with him I never wanted any of this to happen, I don’t even know why he did it, our relationship was better then ever he had no excuse to do it.

I don’t know what to do, we have 2 kids together. I need some advise please.

Sorry for the long post.
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