Hi, could I please get a private post?? It’s a long one, so bare with me basic…

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Hi, could I please get a private post??
It’s a long one, so bare with me 🙈 basically 2 years ago I was with my (now ex) boyfriend, we was together for 4 years. He was awful, never took me out, never spent time with me, he never once stopped at my house I’d see him about an hour a day 😂 he didn’t even tell his mum about us, loads more to it, but it was just a horrible relationship. Well about 6 months before breaking up I found out I was pregnant (15, still at school, about to do my exams) I was scared, of course! But I also wanted to keep my baby, I didn’t tell him for about a week cos I already knew what he’d say. But I eventually told him & straight away he said ‘get rid’ no sympathy, literally nothing else other than that & ‘I’ll stop at yours, I’ll be this, I’ll be that, our relationship will be perfect.’ I was 15, young & ‘in love’ I thought maybe if I did this for him, he’d treat me better & he would do the things he’s saying. I kept pleading with him for about a week & a half but there was nothing else I could do. We went to the hospital, & I had to have the surgical procedure because if I’d have taken the 2 tablets my ex wasn’t able to go back the next day for the second tablet as he had work, wow. I was heartbroken, crying the whole time before & coming up to it, I just didn’t know what to do. But I did it, for him. It almost feels forced, he admits now it was his decision etc. But back then he’d constantly say well you did it though, like a prick. But anyway, I never got the things he told me id get from the relationship if I did that, it just went back to normal, after the procedure he dropped me off at home & that was that for him. But not me, I was devastated, we broke up a few months later, I completely stopped loving him. Anyway 2 years on im happily engaged to an amazing man & we have a gorgeous daughter. But I am still heartbroken, I can’t cope with what happened, he broke me, he ruined apart of my life. It sounds so dramatic but I can’t stand it anymore, I hate myself, I hate him & I want to hurt him so bad, & have something affect him the way it’s affected me!!
Please someone help & tell me what to do. I’m so hurt.
Thank you in advance xxxx
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