Hi… please may I have a private post as it absolutely breaks my best to even t…

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Hi… please may I have a private post as it absolutely breaks my best to even type this…

Sorry for the long post..

I have a gorgeous 5 month old son, he’s my second. My worry is… I think I’m struggling to bond with him. At least considerably less than I have with my first. To the point where even hubby has commented he can tell DS1 is ‘my favourite’
This makes me so sad because I really am trying so hard to ‘love him as much’
I don’t feel anything negative towards him. Just not as strong as I do with my first.
I did have depression after DS1 and badly through my pregnancy so I do recognise it could be to do with this… but I can’t go any higher on my meds.
I guess my question is has anyone else experienced this? I keep hoping that one day I’ll feel ‘in love’ with him but surely that should have happened by now 😢

So heartbroken writing this as he’s adorable and just a little baby looking for love from his momma. How can I be letting him down so badly when he was so so wanted 😢
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