I’m due my baby in 8 days and feel like a failure already obviously I’m not wor…

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I’m due my baby in 8 days and feel like a failure already 😞 obviously I’m not working at the moment due to my girl being due, but even when I did work it was crap money. I get more every 2 weeks on maternity allowance than I did a week working. My other half works his arse off which I am grateful for but I just feel like I should be doing something to make extra money! I have tried network marketing which failed 😂 I had my own face painting business last year and it went well but when I found out I was pregnant I sold all my stuff, I’m trying to get back into it and practice so I can set it all back up again and maybe do it at weekends but it’s a lot of money and time to put in, especially this late on in my pregnancy, I’ve tried crafts to try and make and sell but again, it’s money I need that I’m putting into it to practice. The thing is, I’m trying my best but people can’t see that. I am not a lazy person. I have tried applying for what I can, I have tried to promote products on Facebook, I am trying to build my face painting back up but like I say it’s all money! We are on the housing list but we’re origianlly going to stay at my other halfs mums house with baby as we just can’t afford a house at the moment, but his family have said some nasty things to me which really hurt things like ‘ get a house and stop begging ‘ etc. Now I got adopted when I was a baby and his brother in law knows this because he knows my ‘ birth family ‘ so I don’t know if that gets used against me or whatever but I said enough is enough and now we are staying at my mums house with baby. I’m literally trying anything but people can’t see I’m trying. I literally have no friends, just family. I feel lonely, I feel shit when they speak to me like I’m nothing. My family would never turn round and say half the things that have been said to me! I mean my other half has been amazing, supportive, he has been sticking up for me but he is really close to his sister aswell and when he’s in the wrong his family can’t see that either he’s still mr perfect which annoys me. I mean he went out and got drunk last week and I was only annoyed because I could go into labour at anytime and I got shit for saying that 🤔 ‘ oh it’s not the first time a man would turn up at the hospital drunk’ ‘ oh when you have baby you will be going out it’s only 9 month put your life’ ‘ were all going out to wet baby’s head’ his family says! like no. Just no. like I don’t care about drinking or going out I don’t have friends to do that with anyway and my baby is my no1 priority. I feel like they want me to do what they want to do, it doesn’t matter what I say or what I do I’m always in the wrong and my other half is mr perfect all the time! I have tried everything to make a bit of extra money, I am on the housing list, I have applied for any money I can. like what else am I ment to do to make his family realise I am trying? don’t even know what I’m aiming for here I just really and feel shit for bitching but needed a massive rant and don’t know who else to bitch to 😞😬
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