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Could she get a post please? No bashing.

It’s with a very heavy heart that I write this. Me and my partner have been together for 2 years. Things happened very quickly and within 4 months I was pregnant. Things were going great.. until I was around 8 months pregnant my partner got drunk and pushed me. I was absolutely distraught and so was he. He spent weeks begging for forgiveness and promised he’d never touch me again. All was good until 6 weeks after my baby was born and he grabbed me by the neck forcing me into the sofa. I knew it was wrong but didn’t have the Strength to leave him. Things like this kept happening. As you can imagine I developed post natal depression and it came to a point where I’d just cry and cry everyday. I felt worthless. It’s been almost a year since then and things got a lot worse. I’m not going into detail but let’s just say it’s been just a lot more then a push. I kept telling him that I would hate him if he carried on and that he was destroying me to which he would reply “you forced me to do it” 😞 i now know that this is totally wrong and I deserve better and so does my child! I look at him and I cannot feel anything it’s like I’m totally numb. It’s been a while since anything physical has happened around 3 months so I’m hoping things are changing. He suffers with depression and has had a really rough childhood in the past which I understand does not make this ok! I’ve recently been on a course and I’ve met a man. I had abit of a crush on him but nothing to major.. 3 weeks after the course finished I found out that we had both got the same job and was interviewed on the same day! Which I find really strange… anyway this guy has been talking to me and has admitted that he really likes me.. he knows me and my partner have been struggling and is there to support me. (Doesn’t know the deep parts) It’s just how am I meant to work with someone who I have a crush on and not fall deeply in love with them I mean after everything I’ve been through I’ve come to realise trying to hold onto this relationship isn’t worth it and deserve so much better. I’m in such a muddle I don’t know what to do.. please anyone give me advise. Before you say leave my current partner it’s kinda harder said then done anyone who’s been in the situation themselves should understand. Thankyou x
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