Pp please- Please no one bash, I already feel done in! I feel so utterly usele…

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Pp please-

Please no one bash, I already feel done in! I feel so utterly useless, sat here crying my eyes out with a pounding headache with my 8 week old who I’ve just got to settle after 4 hours of on off screaming fits.

Some nights I look at him and feel nothing, I sometimes look and resent him. And I feel awful, some people try desperately for a child and I have one and I feel as though I regret it.

I love him to bits don’t get me wrong, would do anything for him and wouldn’t let any harm come to him. at the same time I just want to sit and cry! I just keep thinking ‘what the hell have I done’! I look at my body and I hate what I see. My partner doesn’t get how I feel, I’ve covered up in front of him for the past 5 weeks, and push him off if he touches my horrid tummy, he tells me ‘but look at your beautiful son, it’ll get better’ and I just look at him, and then walk away and look at this horrid body I’ve now got! He doesn’t get how stressful looking after him 24/7 as he went back to work after 2 weeks. But also I have to keep the house, which is becoming too much to keep on top of. I don’t feel like i can talk to anyone without them judging, or telling me to basically get a grip (which I’ve been telling myself for weeks and it’s not helping) or looking down on me.

Please someone tell me it gets better, because right now I just wanna run away 😢!
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