Ppp this is quite long, a few months ago my partner left me I had depression and…

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Ppp this is quite long, a few months ago my partner left me I had depression and he said I was unbearable and he was beginning to hate me. The day after he left me he slept with someone his brother had been sleeping with and then a week later started a relationship with her (he never cheated on our relationship) it crushed me but I went and got antidepressants and things slightly got easier, he was was seeing our son twice a week I started going out with my son more, then I had a night out and had a one night stand with a friend and he found out, he then said he realised someone else could make me happy and wanted to get back together I said yes but he wasn’t moving back in so he was staying a few nights then away a few nights things were going well until he started going out and hardly contacting me and then I finally found out that he had been hanging out with the girl he was seeing when we broke up and he stayed at hers a few times when he was drunk she told me all this herself but they never slept together because we were together and she knew this…she then started playing the victim like she had been strung along when she was asking him to leave me for him I heard this myself when he accidentally answered my call when he was with her. This had been going on 3 weeks. When I found out I didn’t cry like I usually would I felt numb and felt like I had accepted that it was time to be over etc I told him I knew and to bring my son back then leave. He told me he was confused he had recently came out to me as bisexual and he was a mess drinking all the time then the girl was saying she loved him etc and they had lost a baby together when we were split up. He swore it was me he wanted, blocked her on social media, blocked her number has only been out once since it happened, will let me on his phone anytime. I’m starting to struggle with it though and starting to wonder if I’ve made a mistake getting back with him. I just don’t understand how he could jump into bed with her straight away after us finishing if he loved me like he said he did or how he could do all that behind my back. I know he’s trying to prove to me that me and my son are what he wants but I still have doubts I spent a long time dying to have him back. I sympathise that he was sexually confused and he hates the fact that he’s bisexual because his family would disown him but that’s no excuse for what he did to me. Everything is pretty much back to normal we do have fun and I love him and enjoy everything being how it was but when im on my own I start to think about it all and it makes me feel sick. I do want to stick it out and see if we really can make it work, I know many people do and that once a cheat always a cheat is not always the case and I know he trusts me with his life for me to be the only person he felt he could confide in about being bisexual. I’m unsure if I just feel all the doubts because it hasn’t been long since it happened and maybe I need more time to come to terms with it all. He is a really good guy he just seems to have gotten lost.
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