Can I have a private post please? So growing up I never knew my biological dad….

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Can I have a private post please?

So growing up I never knew my biological dad. Always known his name and that he wasn’t interested and that was that. Anyway the years went on and he never looked for me, never showed any interest, never seemed to care. And my mum met someone else.
A wonderful man who took me on as his own and has done ever since. Who I’ll always see as my dad no matter what.
So a few years ago a random person approaches me basically telling me they were my sibling and their version of the story they had been told by our biological father. So this then prompted me to do something about it. So I found him, got his address, found out who all his family were, wrote a letter to him. He replies via email, basically just telling me he isn’t interested in so many words and that his family he has now matters, his wife was pregnant and didn’t want to cause any distress to her. So again that feeling of rejection hit me. I grew up wondering what I’d ever done wrong and then this? . Why was I the one he didn’t want? What did i do that was so wrong?
I then decided to message his mum. My potential grandma on Facebook, she also ignored me. More rejection. And still at the age I am, nearly 30 I just feel that rejection and wonder what I ever did.
I’m so grateful for the dad I have and how much he has done for me and my family. He’s the best dad in this world. Should I feel guilty for finding my dad? For messaging his mum? For trying to find those answers I longed for growing up.
I try to block it out but it always pops back up somehow then this feeling of hurt and bitterness appears 😞
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