Can I get a post please? Not really sure what I’m looking for by posting on he…
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Can I get a post please?
Not really sure what I’m looking for by posting on here just need to let it all out really.. hoping I can get some advise. Please no judging.
I was attacked by my partner 2 months ago. He had been struggling with his mental health for a very long time and it resulted in him turning to drink to cope. He came home one night and had a breakdown and sadly I was lashed out at. He left and was charged with ABH and has a restraining order on now which has completely broken my heart but yeah we won’t go into it. I’m posting because I’m really struggling.. I’m probably at the lowest I’ve ever been in my life. I have a little boy whose 15 months old and I’m trying to stay strong for him but I constantly feel like everyone is on my back constantly having a go at me about everything! Telling me I should get over what’s happened and that I shouldn’t be thinking about it. I shouldn’t love my child’s father I shouldn’t want to give him another chance I shouldn’t let him see his son but honestly I’m not like that! I love my child’s father he will have a relationship with his son. I have no support from anyone. I get shouted at by my mum if I don’t give my son attention for one moment. If I sit on my phone and reply to a text I get shouted at, if I go to the toilet and leave him playing in his room I get shouted at if I let him play in his bedroom (it’s 100% baby proof and we live in a flat) I get shouted at. I just feel like I cannot physically get any lower then I am now and everyone is just constantly on my back. I’m due to start work next week 31 hours a week and honestly I feel like I’m not well enough to start. I’m still recovering from emergency surgery I had 2 weeks ago. I’ve been thinking about going to my gp but I’m worried they will look at me as a young parent who isn’t coping and refer me to social services again. (Social came to see me after my partner left but they closed my case). I go to bed every night alone, wake up every morning alone honestly sometimes I just don’t want to get out of bed. I do for my son I try and stay strong for him but sometimes it’s so difficult. I just feel like I have no one to talk to that won’t judge me.. like I said I’m not really sure what I want from posting this maybe words of encouragement? I don’t know.. thanks for reading 😊 x
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