Can I have a PPP. I’m in such a hard situation mentally, basically I met this g…

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Can I have a PPP.

I’m in such a hard situation mentally, basically I met this guy early this year.. things started amazing and well, got complicated.
I’ve been in a mentally abusive relationship before him, so I’m low on confidence/paranoid/insecure.
He basically did a few things that were going out of his way to do involving girls (not chatting or meeting, just screen shotting and searching some by name *they aren’t local, they’re on Instagram and classed as sexualized models I guess*
So I expressed my feelings, he retaliated and I had to put up and shut up because we had no compromise.
The next thing to happen is he is really hard on me and how i discipline my kids, apparently they’re spoilt and I’m too soft.. so whenever i don’t tell them off for something, He grinds me down about it until I feel so low I just want to sleep.
Then there’s the factor I have 2 kids under 4 and he had no responsibilities, so since I’m up at 7am and get tired about 10/11 and he gets up at 10/11am and goes to bed at 1am, we don’t get much US time.. He plays Xbox a lot of watched YouTube, and me being depressed can’t motivate myself to get a hobby.

According to him the solution is me getting off his back and letting him do whatever he wants, but when do my feelings come into it? what about what I want?

I don’t know what I’m looking for, I know there’s wrongs on both sides but he’s adamant it’s all me with the problems and every argument we have is bullshit because it isn’t a problem to him and he sees nothing wrong with anything he does.

Is this mentally abusive? making me feel like I’m always at his throat for everything he does? or am I actually expecting too much from him?

Opinions and help would be greatly appreciated because I’m in such a bad area mentally I feel exhausted and taken for granted.
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