Can i have a PPP. X So I’m 37 weeks pregnant with my 6th child. I have Agorapho…

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Can i have a PPP. X

So I’m 37 weeks pregnant with my 6th child. I have Agoraphobia that was caused by emetaphobia and Ptsd, ive had this since i was more or less 13 years old, now *ahem* 31 yrs old. With my other pregnancies i always found the strength to attend appointments for midwives scans ect .. But this time round it has been so difficult I’ve missed a few appointments. I have tried asking my midwives for a little support in ways of if i manage to get to my app then have a private room to wait in ect… instead i got shouted at, patronized and completely overpowered by a very nasty senior midwife that quoted ‘you are thinking about your mental health, not your baby. I tried my hardest to get a word in to try and explain how difficult it is to live with such an overwhelming disease, but she was so very ignorant to mental health that she wouldn’t even give it the time of day. And we are supposed to have trust in our medical professional, each midwife that has given me their word has let me down. Even with my local doctors surgery i got told that they felt they had been stitched up because they had to deal with my panic attack. Am i wrong in thinking this is not ok?! I have literally cried since yesterday afternoon because of this midwife, i saw another midwife at home today and she continued to tell me they had to look after their jobs and do things by the book, i understand that of course but does that give them the right to be so nasty to someone because they have a mental health problem. Its completely unfair, thry clearly havent read my notes and come to learn whyi have mental health in the fist place, not a pretty story to tell.
I can only hope that i can do something so that the next person doesn’t feel as bad as i do right now. I’m 37 weeks and ready to give birth any time and thanks to stress that this midwife has caused my blood pressure is very high leaving me at risk of bad physical health, having had a pph with my 4th baby and high blood pressure, i am high risk already, so really could of done without this pressure. I’m sorry for that rant guys , I’m not entierly sure what i want to gain from this post, I’m just very hurt and scared right now. And very very tired of my mental health having control over me and being judged because i have it. X
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