Can I have a ppp?
This is going to sound pathetic but I am so lonely. My family live in a different county from me and I’m a single mum to a beautiful little boy. I live near my ex partners family. Everyday is the same. Some days I drop my son off at nursery. But otherwise it’s always the same. I’m bored with no friends. My only “friend” tunes in and out when she pleases and I’m such a lonely mug I put up with it. If she messaged me saying she needed me I would be over hers in a blink of an eye but I know she wouldn’t for me. She always cancels if we make plans and I can go months without seeing her. All of my other “friends” only talk to me when they want something or need to off load. I’m so sick of life. I wake up in the mornings and cry because I don’t want to be awake and I know it’s going to be another crappy day. I love my son and I feel guilty for feeling like this but I can’t help it. My ex (we’re “friends) gets angry if I try and talk about it and says that I have him (I don’t) and his family are nice but one suffers from severe mental health problems and the other had their own health problems. So I can’t very often turn to them. Sorry for waffling. I’ve just had enough. Does anyone else feel the same? Or am I being selfish? X