Could I have a pp please? It’s personal to me and I need help as I think I’m p…
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Could I have a pp please?
It’s personal to me and I need help as I think I’m pushing my boyfriend away and I’m scared I’m going to lose him. Something happened when I was 18 and I’m still not over it but since he’s come into my life I’ve forgot about it.. pushed it to back of my mind but going on I’m pregnant and that’s pushed us apart but we become closer now and he’s very supportive. Going on in April when I was working in a pub I drunk guy touched my boob and I told him to stop and he did it again so I talked to my mum and dad as I work for them (family ran pub) they talked to this old guy.. no problems until a 3 weeks ago.. he did again and made me feel really uncomfortable and I felt disgusting with myself.. I moved away then from then I made sure people was with me when he was around and there was the bar, table or chairs or even people between us.. at this point me and boyfriend stop have sex (we have a high sex drive) then I thought he’s not going to do with a pub full.. this time he came from being hind me and went under my arms pushed his fingers into my boobs from the side.. but I turned around and he was looking over my shoulder looking down my top.. i don’t wear low cut tops because im big chested…. I didn’t freak out right away because stress isn’t good for the baby.. he laughed down my ear and when I didn’t reply or react he started hitting me on the shoulder and I lost it.. going on I had flash backs and panic attacks so I called my boyfriend (which was at home) he calmed me down but ever since I don’t feel good enough for him and he’s to good for me.. I have to be fully dressed around him and if we go to have sex I start crying because I have flash backs.. I don’t know what I can do to be with him or how to make my self feel good.. he try’s to help me and built my confidence up but I have very little right now. I’ve spend the passed 1 week and half locked away because of what’s happened.. I just need advice of what todo to make myself feel better and fix my relationship? No hurtful comments please
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