Hi could I have a private post please. Sorry ladies but of a long winded story …

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Hi could I have a private post please.
Sorry ladies but of a long winded story but I just want to vent/ask for advice.
Basically about a year ago maybe slightly less my partner lost his job and we were unable to cover our mortgage and didn’t want to loose our house so we moved from the north to the south of England to live with his mum and dad. They have a very large house so it isn’t a squeeze and my partner found a job straight away with a steady income. We have a 2 year old son and before he lost his job we’re trying for another baby, something everyone was aware of(we out this on hold while all the stress was going on). While my partners wage is ok it’s way too expensive down here to rent/buy a property of our own, we currently have to rent our house out in the north so that our mortgage is covered each month until we can afford to sell the property (legal fees etc). Things were brilliant at first, my partners parents were very respectful of our space and my routine with my son each day, so me and my partner began talking about baby 2 again and decided we wanted to give it another go, we respectfully asked his mum and dad how they would feel about this as it’s their home (like I stressed before the house is huge plenty big enough for another child) anyway they were over the moon and gave their blessing. Fast forward a few months I’m now 16 weeks pregnant with my second and things are awful for the past few months there has been such a tense atmosphere in the house, his parents argue a lot something they didn’t show at first and my routine with my son is completely ruined, they slyly feed him things without my asking first and my partners mum, although has told me in the past she thinks I’m doing a fantastic job as a mum, constantly undermines me and puts me down in front of my son and my partner, I don’t mean to be big headed but I know I do a pretty good job with my little boy and it’s really hurtful to think I’ve done a fab job for two years so far to start doubting myself now. My partners mum smokes as well she used to do it outside when we first moved here but recently she does it inside, it hasn’t helped with my morning sickness and I hate the thought of my son breathing it in and now me now I’m pregnant, it clings to our clothes and it’s awful but it’s her home so I feel like I can’t say anything. I know hormones won’t be helping how I feel but it started just before I got pregnant it was just a little too late by then. My partner feels very much the same way as I do I think he’s just disappointed in his parents and we’ve tried every which way to work out how we can get ourselves out of the situation without any falls outs, after all they’ve been very good to us, he’s been looking for a better paid job but is struggling and we’ve even talked about me moving back to the north and only seeing him on weekends but I think it would break my heart, the thought of him not seeing my son all week kills me too I don’t want this to effect him in any way. I know maybe the points I’ve made sound really petty but it’s everyday now it’s getting worse and it’s getting both me and my partner down, we think it’ll be even worse when the baby arrives and I don’t want to end up depressed as a result, I feel like I can’t enjoy my pregnancy as I’m just so worried about everything.
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