Hi could u post some thing please I had a baby 11 weeks ago, the father couldn’…

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Hi could u post some thing please
I had a baby 11 weeks ago, the father couldn’t care any less about him,
But I’ve been feeling totally miserable, crying everyday, lonely, lost in my own memories that’s become a nightmare, isolated, suicidal thoughts (won’t go through with them as my babies need me I have a 2 year old too)

Then my 2 year old fell off the slide and bruised her face, we went to baby groups and when we left they reported it to SS (I didn’t hide the bruise cause It was an accident, then she feel on some stones and bruised her thigh) SS wanted safe garding involved and my babies had to have a full physical examinations and pics, they realised it was an accident and left it, but then HV came round weighed them and said my 2 year old had 14 bruises on her, she rang child protection, they came round few hours later and I stripped my daughter naked explained she had 4 bruises from the slide, stones, tripped and snacked her head on radiator and nappy rash .. they believed me and HV got in trouble she hates me.
SS decided to stay involved to give me support cause I’m struggling and I don’t have no family or friends,

Me and my newborns dad lived together, but he left, and I’m having to deal with all the memories and it’s tearing me apart, I am moving in roughly 3 weeks by mutual exchange. I feel so isolated, baby groups have now stopped until September.
My newborn is so clingy so my 2 year old started feeling left out, so when I put him down to spend time with her he will cry until I hold him, but sometimes I’ve left him to cry so me and my daughter can play (please don’t judge) I can’t leave her out.
So the support worker, HV, social worker, my sister, neighbors, etc all said to go to doc’s and ask for help.
So I did today, my daughter burst out in tears for no reason in waiting room which was embarrassing cause it was random and I ended up crying like a wreck.
So I went into see the doc and she asked what been happening cause she read my records and I told her everything and crying at the same time she has perscribed me sertraline but it takes 2 weeks to kick in ..
I’ve just had enough but I don’t know what to do, I’m crying as I write this now.
Has anyone else been like this? Or perscribed sertraline .. what did u do until it started kicking in? Feels like I’m sufficating and it’s hard.
I’ve begged my ex for help, he keeps promising to come and help but when it comes to it, he won’t come.
Just scared on how I’m going to cope, I’m not strong,
😔😔😔Xxx
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