Hi ladies.. pls can i have a private post.. thanks. I really really need other …

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Hi ladies.. pls can i have a private post.. thanks.
I really really need other peoples perspective on my situation as im going mad thinking about it and keeping it to myself. I dont really want to tell my friend.. i have told my mum but shes going to take my side as im her daughter. I would like outside views as i feel it may help me take the steps i need to take.
Met my fiance april 2015, amazing relationship hit it off straight away. He has a possible child (may not be his) from prev relationship her and her mum dont live here in the uk though. I was pregnant dec 2015.. had an early miscarriage jan 2016..wont tell you all the whole details of the relationship etc.. in july 2016 he showed me a conversation on whatsapp between himself and mother of his child.. he wrote i do love you, and youre a great mum to our child and im glad i have a beautiful mother to my child. He told her that she should move on though and be with someone else etc. I didnt think much of it as i thought yes its ok to say he loves her as the mother of her child etc.. we got engaged sept 2016.. and he said he should tell her out of courtesy so she dont find out from other people. I didnt have a problem with it. He said she threw a fit and blocked him.on whatsapp and deleted her number and stopped him talking to the child… i thought it wasnt fair but i didnt want to get involved as that was between them two… anyway, fast foward to now, he showed me messages again that have taken place since feb 2017…i dont know if he forgot he sent these messages to her.. he was looking for a picture in the thread.. bare in mind i am pregnant again, we found out 11th dec 2016.. im 39 weeks now. And i saw he wrote to her i do love you and miss you, and i would be hurt to know if you have moved on and dont know how id feel to know youre with another man, and if i cant have you i dont want no one else to.. time makes you realise things, and i regret not treating you better. She laughed and said are you serious, the only reason i havent moved on is because i dont want our child clinging to some other man… but i wish i never met you. I confronted him as i felt disrespected this time… theres no need to say what he said. He said sorry and all that. He said he only said it because hes worried she will stop the child talking to him now hes having one with me. I still dont think thats a valid excuse. I dont know if my hormones are all over the place which maybe magnifies the way i feel… but i feel so much distrust…i look at him and dont see the same man anymore, i sit and think if he can say those things without thinking. Whilst we are engaged and im pregnant with his child… what will he be like if we got married? I then asked were you still together when you met me. He said not really we werent on a good foot!!! If i had known i would never have gone there if i knew they werent fully finished but he kept telling me he wasnt with her anymore so i believed him. He says he will do anything to fix this… but this happened a month ago and i dont feel hes doing anythinh to make me feel any better. I thought of some things he can do… but i want to know if they are reasonable.
I cant ask him to cut her off, as the childs only 4 and he has no choice but to contact her mum to be able to talk to her. If there wasnt a child involved id straight up say cut her off. I want to say that it may help, if he makes the calls infront of me, because he does it when hes on his lunch break at work as there is a time difference for them as they are 5 hrs behind. So he can make calls when he is home from work as she will then be home from.school. this way i will see for myself he is only talking to the child. And i also want to say he and the mother dont need to exchange so many msgs on whatsapp, only if its abt the child. As there are times where they both go off topic and talk about things that they dont need tp talk abt. The other thing is i feel he tells her too.much.. he asked if she wanted to know the gender of our baby. I dont see why he couldnt have waited til after our baby is born. There are other things too… that i think he dont need to tell her unless it effects their child in anyway? He sends money to them every month which apparently goes all on the child. I know thats a lie the mum dont work and somehow alwaya has her hair or nails fixed and is always at parties. He even said to me i only want to know if shes with someone else because then ill look stupid for sending money, i disagree.. if the moneys for the child then does it matter what the mother does and with who?
I feel so stuck. He says he has no feelings towards her, he only said what he did because of their child..he claims he dislikes her because she hurt him and cheated and the child might not be his (i dnt want him to hate her. I want them to be civil) so i dnt want him to just say things to me to make me feel better.. i feel like he says one thing to her and anotherto me.
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