Hiya would I be able to have a private post pls? I need a bit of advise pls no …

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Hiya would I be able to have a private post pls?

I need a bit of advise pls no bashing
It’s my 40th birthday in mid December and I’ve been really dreading it because of a number of reasons.
I’ve recently got back with my husband after an 11 month break and we are trying again, my main reasons are because I have two boys with him and they were so unsettled whilst he wasn’t here.
I’ve also had a nervous breakdown in September and he has been supportive since.
So back in the summer I started to organise my own 40th birthday party (sad I know) my birthday falls on a Saturday so I was going to have it at home and invite my friends etc, when the hubby returned I told him about the party and he was ok about it but he’s not a party person and I am, anyway last week he came home saying he needs to look after his elderly mum on the same night as my birthday which he does do sometimes as his sister is her main carer and she’s going on a works do, so it means he will have to leave mid afternoon and won’t be back until mid afternoon the following day.
I feel really hurt that he won’t be with me on my birthday and the kids will be with me so I can’t get drunk etc.
Am I being selfish?
It’s actually making me really anxious about my birthday and not making me want to celebrate it even though I feel I should.
Part of me wants him to say no I’m putting you first (which was one of the reasons we split up) and part of me doesn’t want to make him choose between me and his mum.
Am I being selfish?
I’m also considering just going away for the weekend on my own but I know that’s really sad!
Sorry for the long post xx
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