It’s not baby related and I’m not sure what I want from this I guess I just need…

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It’s not baby related and I’m not sure what I want from this I guess I just need to vent. Sorry it’s long.
I’ve been diagnosed with severe depression and I find myself insanely jealous of my older sister. She’s done everything the right way. She met her partner young but they had years of fun together, lived together, both have successful careers and a car. They now have two beautiful daughters, a nice home and have time for looking after themselves and their relationship. And of course their good jobs. They can afford to live a nice life, I think. I feel I’m the complete opposite. I feel like my life is ruined before it’s even begun. I’m only 23, I got with my ex when I was 17 and had two lovely little boys with him. I had a 5 year long abusive horrible relationship with him. I’ve never got myself any decent qualifications and I’ve never had a job despite how much I’d like one. I’m now a single mother, living on benefits struggling to give my children the life I want for them. I feel like such a terrible person for feeling the way I do. Like I’m bitter. Or I’m ungrateful about my life even though it’s my own fault it’s the way it is. Can someone please tell me how I can stop feeling so jealous of my sister? It eats away at me every time I see her Facebook posting about their happy life. I’d never dream of telling her or taking it out on her I just can’t stand feeling like this.
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6 thoughts on “It’s not baby related and I’m not sure what I want from this I guess I just need…

  • 26th July 2017 at 10:22 pm
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    Everyone does things completely different these days doesnt matter what order you do it in. Your still young definitely plenty of time to chance your life around. I had kids first never been married, got quite a few qualifications but I did do them when I was pregnant and more after having my first child. Its definitely do able. Just depends on how much you really want it. X

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  • 26th July 2017 at 10:22 pm
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    It’s never too late to turn things around. Maybe go to a local college and see about courses that might interest you? Turn your jealousy into determination and you will unstoppable. Just have a little faith in yourself that you can do it.

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  • 26th July 2017 at 10:22 pm
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    Look at the positives in your life instead of focusing on your sisters. You’ve got 2 beautiful kids, you’ve escaped an abusive relationship, start think about your future instead of your sisters present. College? Get some qualifications? Volunteer work? Put something on your CV? Don’t always think the grass is greener on the other side, focus on yourself x

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  • 26th July 2017 at 10:22 pm
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    Hun I’m 25 no qualifications but two amazing little kids ….. now my brother whose younger than me he has a successful relationship with a woman who has just graduated from university with bio med science he’s a qualified law graduate both going places he’s already a manager of where he works and is so bright but they both have time for themselves everything I didn’t give myself time to have…. I suffer with depression I’m getting help and now due to start an open uni course in October and start evening college in September everything can always turn around (: look at the positives that you have and see what you can do look at it as your sister may be successful in a job you have one of the most important jobs in the world looking after children there is nothing more rewarding xxxx

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  • 26th July 2017 at 10:22 pm
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    I didn’t work until I was 25, I am now working 2 jobs but soon to be one when I qualify ATM I’m working as a care assistant where I went in with nothing and waking out with a level 3 nvq in health and social care and end of life care and I’m now studying level 3 on early Years with a prospect to do special education needs working in a nursery in the 10yrs with my husband we have finally gone on our first family holiday life can change just give it time

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  • 26th July 2017 at 10:22 pm
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    Hun I feel exactly the same sometimes I feel like Im failing at life as much as I wish I had done it the right way I don’t regret my children but then u got to think there is no wrong way or right way of doing things every one makes mistakes we learn from them u may be just getting by now but it won’t be forever one day you will look back an be glad you had the hard times because you learn from them an believe it or not it makes you a better person don’t be jelous of your sister let her be your goals on what you want one day an get up an get it it don’t just come to you x

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