Please can i have a post My first love got back in contact 7 mths ago after al…

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My first love got back in contact 7 mths ago after almost 20 years previously it had always been about the sex on his side i never realised there was any feelings there however when he got back in contact he expressed how he felt and that he had been silly in the past never showing me his true feelings and that i also was his first true love, and his never been able to forget me, nothing in my life is ever simple! He had no knowledge that 2 weeks later i would be moving abroad to start a new life, however when i told him he said he wouldnt ever stop me from doing what i want and what is best for my life so i continued to move even though deep down i wanted to stay.
We have stayed in contact and have exchanged messages ect over the last 7 mths and for the first time in 25 years he told me he loves me and it made my heart burst open for all the old feelings that i have for him ( now for the tricky part and the advice)
Im going back to the uk in a few days and we have arranged to meet up go for dinner talk about things and also to have unprotected sex which we both know what the outcome could be weve spiken about wanting more children and have just said what will be will be and fate has somthing instore for us all (maybe a very silly idea) however part of me wants desperately to have a child and a happy ending with this man and the other half is saying what the hell are you doing!?
You live abroad his never met your children and your quite possibly never going to settle him down as weve never actually had a proper relashionship ie dates holidays, although we were seeing each other from the age of 10 till 17 ur risking everthing just to have a child with your first love in the hope for a fairy tale. Ive never forgotten him when in previius relashionshios he was always who i wanted.
So i suposse what im asking is does fate really have something in store for us or am i being completely mad in having unprotected sex with him?
Advice is desperately needed do i just go with it or stop in my tracks?
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